Ps. 94.19 🫁💗

Telehealth 12.30pm|

Me: hi, doc. This is an HONEST QUESTION. I’m NOT trying to be funny. Did I tell you I have lung damage? |.

Answer: No. Boooo. And the doc at my 4pm telehealth also said I had not told him this. 😑. So now I’m taking inventory:

People I forgot to tell:

❌ Psychiatrist

❌ Endocrinologist

I told:

✅ Matt Hankey (he was non-committal, but I’m counting this as a Yes, I told him) @hopeforhankey

Not Sure:

❔Neurologist

❔ENT

I know, I know. I SHOULD BE SURE as to whether or not I told my Neuro and ENT, but I’m not bc I’ve been very busy being in denial. The only doc im sure about is my PCP bc she’s the one who told ME. They discovered this on a CT scan in Nov 2020. it’s like one of those speeding ticket pics that you get in the mail and you’re like, of COURSE I wasn’t speeding. But it’s totally YOUR car, YOUR license plate, YOUR profile in the pic and then you have to admit that it was you. Anyway, they said it was “minimal” so I was like it’s no biggie. But when I started feeling discomfort i spent the next 19 months DEMANDING that someone find SOMETHING they could fix. I blame David and Randy for this 😑💯😑. Bc they trained me for years assuming 100% capacity and I did really well, so I was unwilling to accept that there was any reason for me NOT to do well. But I’ve been so uncomfortable lately that I’m finally accepting it. The theory is that this was caused by the vent in 2011. It’s permanent. There is no talk of rehabbing this or reinflating anything. So I’m just doing the best I can with what I have. I still run weekly with @powherchiro Dr. Cheryl, and I think@it’s critical to keep trying #. But most often my “best” is simply lying in bed asking the Comforter to help me. 💗 Psalm 94.19 In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul. #avmsurvivor #strokesurvivor #lifeismysport #learninghowtolive #shreddedgrace

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