Ps. 94.19 ๐Ÿซ๐Ÿ’—

Telehealth 12.30pm|

Me: hi, doc. This is an HONEST QUESTION. Iโ€™m NOT trying to be funny. Did I tell you I have lung damage? |.

Answer: No. Boooo. And the doc at my 4pm telehealth also said I had not told him this. ๐Ÿ˜‘. So now Iโ€™m taking inventory:

People I forgot to tell:

โŒ Psychiatrist

โŒ Endocrinologist

I told:

โœ… Matt Hankey (he was non-committal, but I’m counting this as a Yes, I told him) @hopeforhankey

Not Sure:

โ”Neurologist

โ”ENT

I know, I know. I SHOULD BE SURE as to whether or not I told my Neuro and ENT, but Iโ€™m not bc Iโ€™ve been very busy being in denial. The only doc im sure about is my PCP bc sheโ€™s the one who told ME. They discovered this on a CT scan in Nov 2020. it’s like one of those speeding ticket pics that you get in the mail and you’re like, of COURSE I wasn’t speeding. But it’s totally YOUR car, YOUR license plate, YOUR profile in the pic and then you have to admit that it was you. Anyway, they said it was โ€œminimalโ€ so I was like itโ€™s no biggie. But when I started feeling discomfort i spent the next 19 months DEMANDING that someone find SOMETHING they could fix. I blame David and Randy for this ๐Ÿ˜‘๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ˜‘. Bc they trained me for years assuming 100% capacity and I did really well, so I was unwilling to accept that there was any reason for me NOT to do well. But Iโ€™ve been so uncomfortable lately that Iโ€™m finally accepting it. The theory is that this was caused by the vent in 2011. Itโ€™s permanent. There is no talk of rehabbing this or reinflating anything. So Iโ€™m just doing the best I can with what I have. I still run weekly with @powherchiro Dr. Cheryl, and I think@itโ€™s critical to keep trying #. But most often my โ€œbestโ€ is simply lying in bed asking the Comforter to help me. ๐Ÿ’— Psalm 94.19 In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul. #avmsurvivor #strokesurvivor #lifeismysport #learninghowtolive #shreddedgrace

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