Happy New Year!
I had so much fun with my family I need another week to recover. It turns out that there is a general consensus that I have been declining over the course of Q4 ’14 no matter how much I try to cover it up. I knew the morning I emailed Trainer D with a request to modify the day’s work out from the tone and brevity of his reply that he had a LOT to say but was saving it for verbal delivery. I was right – essentially Trainer D put his foot down and called me out big time and I thanked him a few weeks later for being brave enough to do so bc I’ve known something is wrong and was relieved that someone intervened.
Here’s an excerpt:
Trainer D: [You can’t do this anymore. – my paraphrase.] You can’t just eat legumes.
Me: I can’t even eat those! (I can eat some, but even protein-rich plants are difficult for me to digest so I’m supposed to be very careful about my intake. I fell off the meat bandwagon lately – Daddy is not pleased about this. I’m still eating some, though!)
Trainer D (fist clenched and face contorted painfully): You are killing me. Absolutely. Killing. Me.
[And then he went into the thing about how he can’t diagnose, he can only “recommend” that I do XYZ – i.e. consult with Smurfette (his lovely wife J, the dietician). So I’m working on getting set up to do so formally. I’m going all out – more so than he originally suggested. I’m signaling that I’m ready to take this seriously and do whatever I need to do even though I have some major psychological hang ups regarding food from living in the hospital and having a PEG. Well, I knew I had to do something, otherwise I’d never hear the end of it. :/]
I think Coach R was glad he didn’t have to intervene himself, although he was likely gearing up to do so if necessary. I said to him between sets:
Trainer D got up in my grill last week.
CMD lectured me on Wednesday.
You wanna boss me around, too, R? [I double dog dare ya.]
Just kidding. I’m actually quite compliant when it comes to treatment, therapy, training, etc. Well, I try to keep things interesting for the entertainment value but I generally do as I’m told except for taking off my shoes.
Side note: I took a break from the breathing exercises Trainer D made me promise to start doing bc I had a minor breathing incident a couple weeks ago at the Running Gym. I got too excited and was unable to manage my air and swallow at the same time. Shhh….don’t tell my Speech Therapist(s). I tried to sneak out while Coach R wasn’t looking but he caught me :/. Mommy opined that I need to run slower. I replied, That’s booooring. I’m doing much better with the breathing now, though, have slowed down a bit and am being more careful.
So for now I need some more time to recalibrate and see what I need to do differently in 2015. I plan on being much healthier and stronger ASAP so my raging chi and I will be back in action on Monday Jan 12. Happy New Year!