My Nemesis (1 of 2)

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This is one of my home exercises for VT.  It drives me nuts, but I do it anyway because it will help me with a functional activity – one that I want to be able to do as much as read the written word.  I want to read music.  What you do is that you “jump” from one chart to the other, trying to keep your place while landing on a specific letter, e.g. for the first line you go from “O” on Chart 1 to “E” on Chart 2.  Then F-H, N-C, etc.  There are all sorts of different letter/movement patterns you can do.  One week at VT I did like, 4.  They’ve settled on this one for now, though, which is good since I’m still trying to master it.  My right eye is getting better at chart jumps, but the left eye still does this crazy “searching” thing when moving between charts.  Grrr.  I get mad, like when the very robust Commodore patronizes me when I score poorly on my VT games and tells me I’m a “hard worker.”  The difference is, though, that my annoyance doesn’t seem to help my concentration on the task at hand.  The overshooting and searching eye movements still foil my exercise.  :/

Anyway, I’m going to keep at it since this is going to help me read music, and I’ll need to be able to do that reasonably soon since I’ve asked to be added to the piano roster at church.  I’m on for April – S will be on the organ and ProfJ is helping me with some logistics.  My piano playing assumes that I can get into/out of the bench fine, I won’t fall off, and the congregation will be okay with a few (potentially a lot) of wrong notes.  My plan is to just keep the beat going and try to aim for notes in the same family as the “real” one.  Yeah.  Good plan, that.  Notably, that was my piano strategy before I got sick, too.  I have largely played by ear until now, but lack the skill to just sit down and play anything – so I need visual cues to help keep me on track.  The problem is that I often lose my place when moving between stanzas, or even mid-stanza, since I need to look at my hands more, now.  I learned that the hard way when I played at the Christmas Tea.  But I know a few more tricks to keep myself on track now, though, so we’ll see how it goes.

This is a big deal for me since finding out that I couldn’t play the piano anymore was an even more crushing realization than understanding I couldn’t walk.  This was my first attempt at playing.  Do you know what song I’m trying for?  Hint:  Chris Tomlin.  You can see that although it clearly was not going well, I doggedly stuck to it, hoping it would get better.  It didn’t.  But my playing has improved over time – it just took longer than I wanted it to.